July 16, 2010
Today was the last day of Institute.
I really don’t know how to describe the last 5 weeks of my life.
During undergrad, when I would get really busy with AKA (Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Inc., Theta Chapter) and other involvement at Ohio State I would say “My life is not my own.” That statement just about sums up the past 5 weeks of my life.
Teach for America owned (owns) me.
The 5:30am wakeups, packing our lunch bags, grabbing breakfast and then catching my bus by 6:29am.
The countless hours spent lesson planning, revising lesson plans, practicing lesson plans, and revising again.
The “relentless pursuit.”
But I can’t complain, because this is the life I chose.
This is what I wanted. This is what I prayed for…
It’s one thing to read about educational inequalities. I’ve read a lot on my own. I also learned some things through my Human Development & Family Science (HDFS) courses at OSU. I’ve heard all the statistics about the achievement gap. I knew this would be hard. Last summer before I applied, I read the other blogs on teachfor.us. I knew what CMs were going through.
Seeing and DOING/LIVING are two very different things. It’s one thing to read about the achievement gap, but to have the achievement gap stare you in the face is an entirely different experience altogether.
Institute was 5 weeks, the actual teaching was only 4. That’s 20 days in the classroom. I only taught 1 period a day for 75 minutes.
As straining as it was, I have a feeling the past 5 weeks were only the tip of the iceberg.
Ms. Williams, you ain’t seen nothing yet.